*yawn* i was so happy i thought i had a boyfriend again, but i woke up....ain't that a bitch? and no ...shakya it wasn't a dirrrrty dream. too bad hahaha

chew on this :
guys bring the shit to the table. *most of 'em*

thursday:
take that and rewind it back BBD got the beat to make your booty go *CLAP*

Happy Christening To my baby cousin, Katerina. She is so adorable, I don't have a pic because I didn't get to go to her Christening. *sigh*

I deserve a t-shirt that says "i survived valentine's day": The time 9:30pm the end to the day of death that is valentine's day. or how i would like it to be called "Single's Awareness Day" i'm trying to sound depressed while listnein to 'usher's yeaaaaah" song [insert pause, dancing bumpin the music and scaring the hell outta anne] yea yea!!! ...blah blah blah..its a good song, and i've been fiendin for it. trying to be serious...hehehe *cough, diez slow death* i'm sick so my mind is more delusional than it use to be, cause you know how crystal clear  my thoughts are. HOLLER! *Cough HACK, AAAccHHooo mofo*

valentine's/single's awareness day: through a whole day listenin to my slow jam compliation and listenin to all my of my guy friends tell me what they were doing for their sigz i was glad to see that my heart wasn't as filled with grief and loneliness as before i actually found myself delighted that my guy friends are actually being such romantics. course some of them were just way too overboard, but hey my guy friends are the best and any girl that has this is lucky to have them. hehehe *delusional* along with my slow jam compliation my mother and sister thought i was going insane because i thought i became miss. r&b singer tamia getting so worked up in her jamz. that woman sings from my heart.......but  i'm so happy to report that i was not completely forgotten and even though a significant other was still missing from my agenda of that god awful day it was replaced by two of my good guy friends. how sweet, that through all my *whining* and pathetic going-ons that they thought of something for me.

[set scene] aby yappin away on computer *type type spastic laugh** (jello, anne)

HUSH!!! door bell rings

mamadukez: someone is at the door
aby: answer it then mommy
alex: *gets two base ball bats*
aby: what the hell are you doing?
alex: we don't know who it is

10minutes later

*knock knock on front door*
aby: stupid solicitors at like 9:30???
aby: walks outta room
alex: take this *offers bat*
aby: i'm good, lex.....reallie
mamadukez: hy-up!!! their knocking on the door
aby: i think we should call the police
aby: *thinks* oh god its my psychotic ex boyfriend, wow how low..omg my parents are here my secrets gonna be out soon...shit shit fuck shit fuck!!!
aby: *sees the dude*
aby: AHHHHHHHHHH hehehe its ryan
aby: *runs down the stairs screaming!! YOU GUYS SUCK!!!!
billy and ryan: happy valentine's day *with box of chocolates*
aby: *tears ,screaming, jumpz and give garantuous hug * i love you guys!!

my two knights in dirty sweat shirts brought me to a high class meal at wendy's.....i love it

who needs a man when you've got two? hehehehehe

I'm going to go ruminate on some of life's cruelties that is Valentine's Day....A time where the world's population of coupled significant others can shine through the brightness of their rose-colored glasses, while the rest of us watch in jealously. An insignifcant time of the year where the sacrifice of someone's life has been taken completely and utterly out of proportion. Similiar to Jesus and his relationship to the Easter bunny? That love can only be truly shown and shared publicly on this one time of year, sadly stating that the other three hundred sixty four days of the year are nothing but insignifcant romanticless days. A commercial holiday where materialistic presents and expensive dinners overrun one night out of the year to show someone that you care for them. One day out of the year you show them love but what about the rest of the year, is it seen as pointless and trivial. What is the mandatorial force that makes people dish out of their wallet loads of cash to buy ridicoulously fattening treats and expensive assortments of dying flowers. Why prove it one day out of the year and ignore it the rest of the time. What makes this day special besides the rest of the time?

Roomie Anne, knows why I'm making the attempt at this depth in writing. A normally happy person has nothing to brood about but everything to be joyful about. However writing about that makes it redundant. Therefore this is my ephiphany where there will be no "xanga prop harvesting" you read and feel me? Thanks.....proves to show that I'm not the only one.

To the broken hearts: My theme song people. Tamia blessed with a beautiful voice and even more beautiful lyrics. I'm sorrie I do relate....

I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection
Of a smile that says you believe in love
And just for a moment, I drifted away
But I couldn't stay cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear
I'm tryin' to say

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
Ooh yeah

I'm tryin' to protect you
From the lies that your heart tells
Even though it says that you love me
All I see is pain and misery
Seasons may change
But I can't forget the days of old
My heart ached when you walked away
I said I'd never love again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

The days go by
And I feel that you could make me happy
Time goes on
And I feel that love is at my door
And though I tell myself that you're the one
Who said those words before
Thought it hurts too much
I can't trust in love
Again
Again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz my heart has given up

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
My heart has given up
Can't be here

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
Cuz my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
Ooh
I wouldn't, if I were you
I wouldn't be here
Oh oh oh

edit://valentine's day: happy single's awareness day!! woot woot. hehe for all the single people out there your loved too! sing slow jamz for the majority of the day and you mellow out like a fool. hehe but other than that on top of my list of priorities is a t-shirt that will say 'i survived valentine's day' . thats the motivation that i need to survive next  years! yay!